So here's the thing...

the guy that i'm seeing has a really really hot Ex who he keeps in regular contact with. i have been out with her quite a few times, and she has been completely lovely and sweet. which just makes it worse doesnt it? Hot AND nice... perfection really.

it is inevitable that the thoughts of 'why would anyone choose me (not that hot, moody and just a bit of a bitch) over her'? "He" has been consistently lovely and sensitive about it. I have said that didnt mind, and i didnt - but i had also said that i cannot guarantee that i wouldnt mind forever. i think as this thing moves along i can see myself minding more and more and becoming more and more paranoid and pyscho. well, i'm human after all - in particular, one of the female variety.

having said all of this, she really is very lovely (and i do like her - though admittedly i secretly wished that she were dumb (at least dumber than me!)), and i do trust 'him'. so in light of these more important elements, i will continue to try not to mind, to try to be logical, and not become pyscho woman over this.